in their own words: cheryl cole

As featured in UK Elle magazine, February 2011

{words & images via Elle}
on putting on a brave face: “It’s very much a perception. And that can be frustrating at times, especially when somebody you’ve never seen before approaches you in a restaurant toilet with an opinion on your marriage. Nobody knows what I went through behind closed doors. Nobody knows what it was like when I was on my own. Of course I held myself together in public. Who wouldn’t? Do people want me to throw myself on the street and weep?”
on her self-perception: “My confidence has never hit such an all-time low as it has this year. It feels really bad. I’ve always been self-critical but… I don’t look at pictures of myself. I can’t. I used to be able to, back in the beginning. It’s not about how you look, though, but how you feel inside. I’m getting there again, but it’s a process. At least I can say I’m happy with my morals and with myself as a person.”
on life after divorce: “People who have been in my situation tell me that it’s taken them a long time, it’s been a long struggle and by no means are they over it – but they know why it happened. I can’t wait to get to that point. I’m sure there are reasons. I don’t know what they are yet, but I’ve got to believe it. I’ve got to! The one thing I would love is to just feel settled one day.”
on her personal style: “I’m high maintenance when it comes to beauty. I never dress for men. That’s just not me. Never have done. I want to feel nice as a woman – and for women to think I look nice, too. Fashion is armour, isn’t it? And I need the power of that armour.”